What you choose to believe defines you. It has the power to hold you hostage, or to heal. Thoughts come and go and what we choose to attach to, and the means we give them, are what we can change.
Why fight who you are? What you were meant to be? do? The reality of your life is trying to teach you something. The answers you seek, they are within you. Stop. Breath. Truth will find you.
Different isn’t always better. Healed isn’t always whole. The other doesn’t mean a happier life. When does the never ending chase for being “better” end and just being you, me begin? I realized that I had to make peace with myself. That this moment, I can let go of the striving for answers. I can let go of the pressure to eat perfect, take the best supplements, get to all my appointments, drink my water, etc. It is exhausting.
At the beginning of this year, I had set an intention, but life seems to be setting one for me. I am choosing to be purposeful in it. There are no coincidences and getting curious about what it means for me is the path I need to go down on.
One day in hot yoga, the instructor asked us to pull apiece of paper form a bowl. Each piece of paper held a word, and she asked if we would set an intention for the class, with that word. By focusing the mind, the body, the energy on one word, I was amazed at the outcome. eery breath felt like I let go of a little more. Every breath I was little kinder to myself. Gentleness.
Thats what gentleness means to me. Self compassion. being gentle with myself in the day to day grind that often seems so unkind. That is messy, frustrating, and painful. Especially in the times when my heart is aching and my head is spinning and I don’t know what to do, the word gentleness comes to mind, and I don’t have to do anything at all but just breath a little deeper, and just be me.